Haha, maybe right now I’m telling you all crap things… but this situation really caught me up…
Like about 2 days ago, I went to Sushi Tei, all alone..haha, maybe it’s like an uncommon thing for anyone, but what about if I take it as a normal? OK, it’s nothing special, there are may be some number of people do think that’s a normal too…But at that time, when I was doing that “normal” thing, I was like thinking about me, I’m totally pathetic person, arent’ I? from there I was like kept imagining things bit exaggerating, do I really have bold meaning for my existence? To be honest, sometimes I did fake to be acceptable, it’s not like I’m doing things to make people suffer, I mean it’s so often for me doing things that I don’t have any intentions to do it…Sometimes we have to lie to make others happy right? But what if you are being used, or maybe you feel you are, and what if finally people got you in real you? Are you still acceptable? or your existence would be about to end up sadly after you make others “happy”…Not just that, what’s gonna be if you’re in that condition, and also found out bitter fact about your “feeling”? Things get worse I guess…
Hmm, already felt this too hyperbolic and quite crappy? I told you before, you can off reading then if you did so…
and the worst is, what about if you realized that your dream so far, which is keep doing your existence and you’ll be happy until you got it (make you individually happy, I mean), is supposed to be not the right thing for you? plus you realized you’re not capable of it, so you can’t do something to substitute things to fix them up? I guess your well planned dream will turn into big crash, am I right?
so the question is what’s the value of things all you have done then???
Maybe it’s a bit gone too far, but I didn’t make it up…I just realized and I’m quite affraid that I feel like I’m getting used to be alone to face all matters…I hope it would be just a glimpse and let’s see what I can do to deal with, because it sucks…but the good things are those Salmon Skin Maki and Crispy Rolls gave me surely a delight that day, hehe…well then, finally this writing meets its full stop, signing out!
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